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There is a deep and thick underbelly of the city. I usually begin slightly inside the perimeter, heading inside. I don’t know who I am. Sometimes walking in and out of buildings, slum buildings, searching for someone, in condemned apartment buildings, or in courtyards with no walls, ruination and destruction everywhere. I give up the goal, and look around for a street sign, having no idea of location. There is no sign…no street…only ill-defined filth-strewn paths winding off in different directions. No way to get from here to there. A corner where there is no street, more littered paths sinking away. Paths where an ill-blown wind has cleared pass-ways, to a vague intersection…I run to the edge, and peer frantically into the right, then the left, back to the beginning. It becomes clear that there is no right or wrong way, only a thicket of debris that is indescribable…just there.
Finally, after wandering endlessly, seeing no one, hearing nothing except the silent rustle of the papers and leaves…finally I am aware of a presence, someone there where only nothing had stood before. A woman, tall, gaunt, eyes like cold, deep, obsidian… the wind, whispering “There’s no way out.”
“There has to be a way…these city blocks have to end eventually.”
“They do, but there is no easy way, no fast way. No public transportation, no passable roads. Only terrible crushing destruction and devastation, and the remains of what was once….but is no longer. Look up…there is no sky, no ceiling, no clouds…only clear and uncluttered UP. If you can get to the station there is hope.”
“There us a way, for those who dare to take it. It begins here…”
The misty woman inclined her head toward the center, where I now could see what I can only describe as two secured ropes, or strings, such as in an entry to an exhibit or a demonstration. It reminded me of a rope bridge over a gorge, such as one sees in the great colored photos of explorers to the jungle lands. Only this track, if it can be called that, forming the walkway, consisting of two one-inch in diameter ropes placed side by side about six inches apart. The track ropes were not fixed, but seemed to be more or less secure, and above them about waist-high were two more ropes, these thinner and more flexible than the bottom of the track.
People approached the suspension bridge, as it might be called, and stepped onto the bottom track, one foot on each of the parallel ropes. The hand railings were of a thinner rope, more accurately a stout string or twine, which were not taut as one would expect them to be, but more flexible and allowed for a gentle wave-like motion. The bottom track ropes, and the higher track strings, were secured at wide intervals of perhaps eight feet. I stepped onto the apparatus, and the misty woman entered behind me, and she and the man in front of me showed me how to set my feet securely, and to hold onto the string loosely, wrapping strings around my hands in a gathering motion in order to maintain a satisfactory tension.
The track rose steadily from the beginning point, until it was many feet above the ground level, perhaps thirty, then fifty feet high. As long as the rhythmic tension of the string-ropes was steady, there was a secure feeling of comfort and security. Below was a montage of landscape and color, streets packed and lined with all fruits and vegetables, lush collections of the bounty of Earth. There were no people on the streets below.
If only this bounty could be used to feed the world population!
“But this is not possible,” said the woman.. ” Only the deserving can partake of this grand bounty, and they are few and far between.” We passed along, sometimes in an orderly queue, other times the string ropes would stretch or a long gap between the “riders of the ropes” would cause the path to sway and weave about unsteadily.
“Here is everyone’s favorite part…” said the woman facetiously, as we passed over a great canyon of bones and skulls, the remains of dead people and animals. The dead were brought in from everywhere, stored in this terrible receptacle below our secure bridge. Falling off, slipping from our path, was fatal. Fresh bodies lay among the parched bones. The landscape began to assume the character of tunnels, subways or underground passages, concrete walls beginning to take the place of the buildings below. Burned out buildings passed below, rubble, destruction, and death of many kinds.
Eventually the chasm brightened, and great staircases of concrete and stone began to materialize below. Tunnels branched off in all directions.
“This is where we can leave,” the woman said. “Now is the opportunity to jump off of the rope/bridge and escape.”
Unfortunately the alarm interrupted the dream…
,Three doors. I see the doors and I know I have to choose one…or one will be chosen for me, and I know that is what I should avoid at all costs. In my nightmare I am awake, and aware that I am not asleep.
The door on the left seems to be shimmering almost like the effect of a digitalized signal from a satellite dish, emitting a low, almost inaudible hum. The door on the right appears to moving, pulsating in a boundless throb, which is sensed rather than physically felt. By contrast, the door in the center is mundane and nondescript.
On the floor beneath my feet is a Venn diagram, two overlapping circles, one painted black the other white, with the overlap section painted with silver. I stand in the very center, but I am not a body but only an ephemeral wisp.
So, as the time became the present, with an urgency for me to choose one of the doors, I am aware that the time has run out,and I make my choice:
… the center door.
Just as I reach the door the knob falls off in my hand, the door still closed…with no hint at what lies within.
I know, in the dream, why I have chosen this center door. It is my nature to be of the conviction that nothing is ever black or white, but only shades of grey. Therefore the point of this nightmare is this–whatever the potential value or cost of what unknown trash or treasure lay behind the two doors will be modified and adjusted by the common influence of the leveling and equalizing features of the Venn diagram.
The point? There is rarely a point to a nightmare.
One of my most recurring dreams is called “The Farm.” The theme, or plot, of this dream is loosely built upon farm property that my late husband and his parents worked for decades. But of course this is a place in the realm of dreams…and not based on anything even remotely real.
Last night’s episode combined elements of two basic dream scenarios. One was the basic farm market theme, the other involved a very old house which is a staple of another of my nocturnal destinations. In the dream here under discussion the two-story building was more like huge barn than like a house.
I was called to the back of the building to see, at the second story window, a very large stag with a huge rack of horns.
The animal softly uttered a sound that for all the world sounded like “MEW…” I said to him, “OK–I’ll get you out.”
The problem was one of logistics, getting the stag to come down the stairs of his own volition, without trampling any of the people who had gathered, apparently finding the situation more interesting than browsing the vegetable market.
The stag proceeded to come down the stairs and make a dash for one of the open areas leading outside. At least one female deer, in a panic, crashed about and escaped unharmed. Two fawns were leaping about like ballerina dancers.
My concern was for the frantic animals, and the foolish crowd milling around as if at a circus. Then there was a ruckus at the stairs, and I yelled “WATCH OUT FOR THE BUFFALO!”
The poor BUFFALO was huge, and had the prerequisite curved horns. It was frightened by the crowd , which by now was as scared as the buffalo.
At this point our neighbor’s big chocolate lab, Princess, had moved between me and the buffalo–which both of us greatly appreciated.-